hidden personalities
look at me
from right to left
from above and below
in between
what I might show
tell me what you see!
I need to finally connect
the inner me
with outer traced contour
make a whole
of my mitch-match
patches, scratches
you say I'm grounded
I am grounded alright
six feet down
covered all the way
deep down in my own dirt
I know the smell of ground
I can still stand straight
feet nailed down firmly
to solid wooden floors
locked down grounded
from my fixed viewpoint
capable enough
you talk about the light
I have seen the light
stuck my head up once
through the dunes of the sahara
the light was everywhere
running down my spine
like a glowing fireball
and once I had
a pitcher full of sunshine
poured into my womb
sheer bliss
I can't complain
you say I'm brave
oh yes, I fight my battles everyday
did you see the machetes?
one in each hand
criss crossing over wrongs
marking my defeats
on skin
they cut both deep and fast
I handle them with skill
almost invisible to human eyes
I know they scare you more than me
I recognise the taste of blood
and then you mention trust
I don't know trust that well
I'm guided more by fear
attracted to the pulse of hearts
the flow of blood
the sparkle in your eye
as I mostly travel skinless
eyes firmly shut
my inside noise covering up
every trace of guidance
I would call it stupidity
more than confidence
but I will gladly accept
all that you might offer
each handrail
every glowing sign
showing me a way
on the map that I once drew
I need to finnaly connect
become a whole
end my journey
reach my goal
unite my bodyparts
5 comments:
Sit Lotus and reconnect The seeds drop as the blossom opens sweet friend.
Strong. Very strong.
You.
Hi Honey!!
Hi my dream man!
writing you a mail
love
To You!
Even though You are now unable to read this (unless maybe over my shoulder where I picture You right now) I will write You this thank you note.
Thanks to You I did finally connect!
My pieces became one, the whole that was always there. Totally grounded, balanced as one.
You pointed direction within and without, the fear and the fog. You mirrored and polished each reflection to perfection. Making me shining, making me shine. I am more in the light than ever, more enlightend as well.
You also made me braver than I have ever been as You made me face my bravenes and trusted me to be exactly that.
I only wish it wouldn't have taken all my braveness to face my own fears as well as yours. I would have been satisfied with less. I know You know this.
But what You taught me best is trust. There is nothing I do better now, nothing I use more.
It hurts me though, tremendously, that I was not able to teach You the same.
So what You did and what I will for an eternity (since You told me time is relative) be grateful for, is exactly what You just told me.
Strong. Very strong.
Love
Peace
Me
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